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Memorial

We went to the memorial service for Christina yesterday. I don’t really know what to say, except…I don’t know.  A friend of mine told me that her greatest fear is dying while her children are young.  She said that she just can’t even let her mind go there, can’t bear to think about it. Sitting at that service yesterday? Well, the mind went there. It had to. This is a family’s reality. I can’t even. Shawn, Christina’s husband, said that, a year ago, when Christina started radiation and had to stop nursing their son cold turkey, the 1-year-old gave up his naps.  He started waking at 7:30 p.m, if I remember correctly, and doesn’t fall asleep until 9.  And all I could think was, was he soaking up time with his mom?  Is this how he adjusted to the difficulty in their family, even though he couldn’t understand it?  Their son didn’t leave his dad’s arms the entire morning.  Shawn said he’s been like that for the last couple of…