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To Give Some Rest

Quinlan, like many four-year-olds, is afraid of the dark. Every night, she cries–and the cries, they are so loud–until I finally end up lying down beside her, after countless trips into her room to tell her, honest, it’s all okay. I lie there in my jeans, on top of her covers, running through my mental to-do list of what I still have to conquer before my own collapse into bed. My eyes burn after another long day of thisthisthis, and I wrap her in my arms, this sobbing child, shaking and shuddering, until she finally falls asleep on my shoulder, one hand on my chest, the other against her mouth. Her hair is a tangle of curls spread out over the both of us like sea foam on a stormy ocean, and I have to tenuously plan my escape, lest one of those knotted strands wrap itself in my earring or under my arm, waking her and starting the routine all over again. In my heart, I understand that this is just a normal part of childhood, and it will pass, but I hate that she’s frightened and wish…

Somebody Remind Me of This When I’m Losing My Mind

I don’t need to tell you what our Saturday nights of yore were like, back when we were young(er) and didn’t have gray streaks running through our hair and would actually be bored on a weekend. You know what they were like, because you lived them at one point, too.  You were out of the house, drinking and eating and seeing neat sights that cost money to access, and you didn’t care if you went to bed late because you could sleep in and whatever, man, just bring me another beer, okay? This Saturday night found us cooking hot dogs (vegetarian for me and the girls, because apparently now that the first trimester is over, unless it’s a McDonald’s cheeseburger, I am a STRICT vegetarian. Strict, I tell you. Except for that chicken I had yesterday, but only because I was famished and had to eat before I started gnawing away at my own arm. I’m so back on the wagon, yessir…except for the cheeseburger I’m suddenly craving because I just wrote the words “McDonald’s cheeseburger” right there. Dagnabit…