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Because Peace on Earth Isn’t Really My Strong Suit

I told David recently that sometimes my idea of a heaven–a true heaven, entirely imagined but wholly a real place where we go when we die and live forever and ever, amen–would be the chance to relive our lives, exactly how they were, just without all the mistakes: none of the yelling. None of the gossiping. No fights, no personal cold wars, no shunned friends or hurt family members or crying children. It would be a chance to live our lives exactly how they’re supposed to be lived, in Ideal Land, where the children know they’re loved and you’ve never hurt anyone and you never go to bed at the end of the day cringing over that thing you said or that moment you let slip away. It would be a place where you made sure your neighbor knew you cared, and where you ensured the hungry were fed, and where you never turned away from someone trying to meet your eyes. It’d be a place where, if hurt or offended or upset, we’d get to react or move forward or jump past the pain in…

A Pair of Shoes, A Paradox

Ladies (and some gents, if you’re willing to own up to it), do you remember this? Wearing your mom’s high heels? Prancing around in her clothes? Getting that giddy smile on your face when, for just a second, you were somebody else? Somebody special? You were your mom! You were a grown-up.  I caught Saoirse trying on my shoes yesterday, cavorting around her room a little too well for my taste in heels that are just about three  inches too high for anybody under the age of, say, 18.  She was giddy. I was concerned that she was going to wreck an ankle.  And as I am wont to do, I had three extreme and sudden silent reactions, all while keeping a proud-mommy smile plastered on my horrified face: 1.  Holy s#!+! She’s going to wreck her ankle! 2.  Aaaahhh!  No, no!  You look too mature in those heels and getthemoff! 3.  Wait. That’s what I used to do with my mom’s shoes. When did I become the mom? As I ran to grab the camera before Saoirse forgot the shoes and went back to playing with Lightning…